Fighting my impulses, controlling them, saying no to myself. It was far from easy to get through. But I did, and now:
I can do this.
Even today, when I am being tortured by horrid allergies, sinus pain and a whopping headache, I don't feel like I've been defeated. Longer term followers of my blog would know I'd be wailing at this point about how unfair life is and that the universe is out to get me.
I know it will happen again. Knowing that I've battled this Boss and defeated it, and scored some pretty good loot (sorry for the nerdy gamer chick reference) - confidence, motivation etc, will hopefully make the next time I face the impulse control demon easier.
12WBT - Week one review
We've now finished the first week of the 12 Week Body Transformation program, so I thought it would be timely to give a quick review.
The Nutrition Plan
So far, I think it's fantastic. Not all the food has been great, (using stock powder as a primary flavour in a recipe - yuck), but the ability to customise menus on a daily basis and have a shopping list automatically generated is a big win for me. Cancelling out meals where I know I won't be at home, knowing that Saturday night gets to be a special treat, calories-aren't-counted meal is something to look forward to, and making sure there are choices that my darling fusspot will eat makes it easy and comparatively stress free. There is also an ability to program in left over meals if you're making a recipe that caters to more than the number of people you are feeding - reducing wasted food, a big problem I have had on a certain other program that helps you watch your weight.
The only downside (and it's a pretty minor one) is the way the nutrition plans are classified. I've put myself on the 1500 calories per day diet because I know that this will work better for my psychologically. Also, I have a lot to lose, so when I get closer to my final goal I can drop down to the 1200 calorie plan.
The Exercise Plan
To be honest, I've ignored most of this due to still being in recovery mode. From what I've seen, I'm impressed that it caters for people who go to they gym and use either machines/weights or attend classes, and for people who exercise at home. You're asked to workout 6 out of 7 days, but I know I'll end up with worse injuries if I do that, so I'm starting with 2-3 days and I hope by the end of the 12 weeks I can do 6 days per week.
Forums have helped me this time - participating in and reading. It's good to know there are other people out there facing the exact same challenges as me. Seeing how other people deal with it - 'confessions' of people who have 'broken' the diet and people who've battled their demons and won. I'm not comparing myself to anyone else either, so seeing people who have lost a huge amount of kilos this week isn't getting me down and making me feel like a failure. I'm in the tortoise zone.
There are also podcasts and vodcasts to help participants along the way. These have been helpful. Motivating.
Despite being ill, I feel hopeful. Like in 11 weeks from now (which, you should know is the day I turn 36 - mark it in your calendars, people!!) I'll be happy with the result.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to return to the horizontal before my head explodes.